Saturday, May 10, 2008

Happy Mother's Day

I made this bracelet for Ardis, she was on vacation with her husband, Tom, in Florida this week. Ardis has 2 sons, so having a chance to take care of Ada and buying a pink nightgown must be quite an experience for her. For the past 9 weeks, she had been helping me taking care of Ada as if Ada is her own daughter, so it's only appropriate for me to share my daughter with her. I always introduce her as Ada's adopted mother and I hope she doesn't mind. It is hard for Ardis to leave, she is worried about Ada and me. By the time I have to leave for Thailand, I will feel the same way. My friend, Yui, will travel with me. I can't imagine sitting on the airplane by myself for 18 hours, feeling lonely.
It is tough being a mother, especially during the difficult time as I am at this stage of my life. I don't expect a big bouquet of flower or any gift, I just want hugs and kisses from my kids. I'm sure I will get plenty from my sons, but still, longing for a hug from my daughter.
My mother passed away while I was here, 25 years ago, I did not get a chance to say good bye. For a long time, I had this thought about if I had one wish, what do I wish for. Not a million dollar or a fancy car, I just want one more chance to go back and tell my mom how much I love her and give her a hug one more time. I love you, mom.
Don't wait until you don't have a chance to hug your love one again, do it today.
Happy Mother's Day everyone.


Anonymous said...

Dearest Ponsawan,
You have touched the deepest part of my heart. You have given me the greatest gift, being a part of your daughter's life and journey only compares to the days my sons were given to me by their mothers in Korea. Last year I celebrated Mothers Day in Korea with Kyle's mother...this year I celebrate Mother's Day with deep love for my "adopted daughter" and her family. I am truly blessed.

My dearest wish for you today is to spend quiet time with your children knowing how very much they love their mother. Even though Ada can't tell you she reserves her special looks just for you. I have the privilige of seeing that everyday.

As you journey to Thailand with Yui
I wish you peace and a chance to say to your parents I Love You in your homeland..they hear you.


Anonymous said...

Ponsawan and Ardis ... you two women are an AMAZING example of love as described in Corinthians 13.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.

Many blessings to you both as you share this Life Story together, as "sisters" on a journey.

I pray often for Ada and I think of her a lot.

Happy Mothers Day!!

Melanie said...

Dear Ponsawan and Ardis, Happy Mothers Day to both of you. I come here daily for any updates on Ada...Ardis is sure to love her new bracelet Ponsawan and I am so happy that you have made time to bead...that has to be good for you!I pray that you have a safe trip back home and know that your sweet daughter is going to be in good hands while you are away...God Bless you and yours...Keeping Ada in my prayers...Melanie:)

Anonymous said...

Dear Ponsawan,

Thank you for sharing about Ada sitting down today and improving every day! What a great mother's day present! You asked me to share some things from 23 years (and 4 months) ago when we went to the hospital to see Ada being born...We were all young graduate students and we were excited for a baby to join the group. Ada was so cute (some things don't change). We kept watching her in the nursery. Then the group got bigger with more classmates from BSU coming to visit Ada and you... I guess the noise was a little bit too much for the babies and the nurse asked the group to leave...or so you remember...I don't remember that part! I wish I can post the photo for all to see of the gorgeous baby! (Is there a way to do this?) She was so quiet and smart and in our wedding when she was 11 months old, she walked all over the place so gracefully and quitely! We had great times then.

Now life seems unfair for a strong, intelligent and beautiful Ada, but life is unfair and sometimes we cannot get answers to the whys. We just know that Ada is strong and young and WILL wake up some day soon.

I remember too when you received the news that your mother had passed away and now I received the news that your father passed away..25 years appart, right? I knew then and I know today how much it meant for you to finally be able to go home, even though you were not able to go there immediately. They are both watching over Ada now. Positive thoughts will accompany you in your trip (thanks yui for accompanying Ponsawan!)and will remain with Ada. Ardis, I hope to meet you some day. Thank you for all you do since some of us live too far to, physicially, be there for the Silapiruti family every day. THANK YOU!

Love and hugs,


CU# 1835024 said...


I was out late last night and could not return your call when I got back. Sorry.

Daniel and I are stunned by Ada's photos you sent. She is so beautiful; the buried anger at this senseless accident surfaces again. You and Ardis are so strong to deal with this all the time.

Daniel looked carefully at all shots. All of them but one show her left side. If you can, please send Ada's profile, her right side looking right, and other candid shots. Despite the fact that he has never met Ada, I can see that he is crafting her 3-d image in his mind. This blog helps him to know Ada so that her portrait will be a fair representation of her.

I will call you at noon today. Your blog is so wonderful and there is so much I want to say to you. I am grateful for Ardis', Ting's, and Frances' comments. They said things so beautifully the way I can only dream of.

Everytime I hug Nathan, I think of you and Ada. This Mother's Day, I especially think of Piak, Archie and Arty. May they find peace and comfort knowing that everything they can or cannot do for you is sufficient. The men in our lives should know we can never be who we are today without them and their help defining our being.

I pray for Ada to heal fast and continue to be strong for you and us all.