Wednesday, December 14, 2011

One day at a time.

This is the advice I always get from my good friend, who, for almost 4 years now, had been listening to what ever I need to let out almost everyday. Sometime I just complain and complain too much, I was afraid that he won't come back the next day to hear me complain anymore. But he always there for me. Dr. Jill Taylor once told me that don't think about the future too much, I will freak out and she was right.
I was freaking out like she said. See, when my husband had to go to Thailand to visit his family, I told him, he can't be gone too long. he didn't say anything but he actually went for almost 6 weeks. While he was gone, I kept myself busy. It is hard to keep up with Miss Ada in the evening by myself. Arthy had been a big help but he had something else to do too. One evening, Miss Ada had a fever, her legs and the whole left side was shaking. I gave her Tylenol but she didn't fall asleep till 3 am. She had fever for a couple more days then she was fine. It had happened before and I think her brain and body react to germs in different way. With weather changes, holidays hectic, I stressed out. I just realized that this is hard, too hard for me to take care of Ada by myself. What if something happen to one of us?
I am trying to take it one day at a time, but just got a call from my husband who informed me that his flight from Bangkok to Shienghai was cancelled and he was trying to get another flight and, hopefully, he will be home tomorrow. Is it time to freak out?
One sad note. My friend, Ting, who always leave me comments, encouraging comments had been fighting brain cancer since last year. She is in coma now with a few more days to live. Ting lives in Australia with her husband and her young son. And I can't do anything about it, so I freak out, again.
Hopefully tomorrow, all my worries will be gone, or it will be just another day, who knows!
P.S. I received a call from my husband this morning. he made it to Chicago but missed the flight to Indy. he will be here this afternoon. And a friend in Australia was able to visit Ting and delivered my message to her. I just want to tell Ting that Ada and I are fine, don't worry about us. Rest well, Ting.


Melanie said...

God Love you Ponsawan...I cannot imagine how difficult some days can be for you...I am happy to hear that your husband will be home today! I am sure Ada misses her daddy a bunch!! I know how much she loves him! I am so very sorry to hear about your dear friend Ting...may God be with her and her family at this time...slow down...take a deep breath...Please give Miss Ada a huge hug from me! Blessings~Melanie:)

Anonymous said...

Hi Ponsawani,

I am sorry to hear that Ada got sick when Piak and Arthy were not around. I am glad that she got well, though and Piak will be home hopefully today. I am so sorry about your friend Ting. I am sure her last days will be peaceful. Please know that you can call me any time. I am here for you! I wish I would have known that you were by yourself with Ada. Take one day at a time and breath deeply, exhale, breath deeply, exhale. My thoughts are with you both. Love and hugs

Rachel Radez said...

You are one of the strongest people I know! I'm really sorry to hear about your friend Ting. I love you so so so much! Everything is going to be fine. I wish I had more time to be over there with you and Ada, I miss guys you lots! I'll see you next week!